Picture (Im)Perfect | Ana Linden

Picture (Im)Perfect | Ana Linden

I still feel sorry for the photographer who used to take my picture once every couple of years or so when I was a child. God forbid my mother framed anything but a picture of professional perfection of me. You know how some children hate the dentist s and parents have to drag them there under false pretext well, once in a while, I d get to wear my best and most uncomfortable dress, awfully oversized bows, shiny patent leather shoes and I would be tricked into having my picture taken. Don t get me wrong, I don t mind being photographed, I simply never liked posing. That s why I still feel sorry for the poor man, he certainly had his work cut out for him. As usual, getting me to look natural while sitting on the ugly, uncomfortable chair, staring at the camera was a demanding, time consuming, frustrating experience. I had offered my own suggestions, but they had been blatantly disregarded, so he had to deal with my attitude as well.

But somehow he managed to get a decent shot, all the people waiting outside (whose appointments had been pushed back because of me) were only mildly angry, so everybody was happy. Almost everybody Clearly, I was not going to be the only child in the room that day. We were ready to leave, my mother announced. Sure, why not just leave? After all, the child is all everybody cares about these days She doesn t mean anything to anybody anymore nobody wants to photograph her . nobody wants to frame her picture Yes, my grandmother was throwing a tantrum, as she had her heart set on having her picture taken as well (I would have gladly traded places). So that s what the new hairdo and the elegant outfit were all about.

One more picture, my mother pleaded with the photographer just one pretty please pretty please with a seductive smile on top Well ok, but just the one, he was pressed for time. In the blink of an eye, my grandmother put a doting arm around my shoulder, the photographer adjusted everything, I heard the snap and that was it! My grandmother got her picture and I got mine! I looked adorable, she looked respectable, elegant and loving and the little ugly doll I managed to sneak out of my pocket and hold up right in the centre of the photo looked hilariously horrendous. Rage, outrage and pouting for several days followed, the picture was deemed unworthy of being framed, but I swear, it was all worth it especially considering that the punishment I received was, No more professional photos for you, missy!

Had I only known that was all it took

You look so happy here that must have been such a great trip/birthday/holiday.. Yet I knew what he reality behind those picture perfect moments was, the same I knew there was nothing honest about them. I remember looking at those pictures they were pretty, I looked nice, everybody looked happy, but somehow, I felt I didn t recognize the faces. They may not have had social media and online personae those days, but certain pictures were nevertheless taken simply to keep up appearances and/or to trigger other people s envy. How else were they to know you were so much better and lived such a fulfilling life? Not much has changed, after all

Later on, as a teenager, I discovered I loved candid pictures of myself and my friends. They may not have been considered acceptable by certain relatives, but the more ridiculous and funny they were, the more I appreciated them. I hated and still hate staged photos. Fine, fine, call it composition if you must, but that s not for me. I m not a photographer, I just take photos for fun, for myself, so I would remember as many moments and details as possible.

But when I look at the pictures I ve taken decent, awful and mediocre ones alike I remember exactly how I felt. There are those I ve taken because I needed to make myself feel better; there are those that I ve taken to remind myself that some nice moments existed even during the worst of times; and there are those meant to remind me of how I used to perceive certain things. There are also those photos in which I look terrible, exhausted, but I know what a great time I was having exploring, being alive and enjoying it. In fact, some of my favourite pictures are the imperfect, damaged ones. What determined them, what those moments lead to, that s what holds value and creates a memory for me, not an impeccable image of a perfect smile. On that note, I m focusing on seeing past the grey clouds and the dreary scenery while waiting for more and more flowers to bloom. After all, although it may not look like it, winter is officially over.

Have a wonderful spring, everyone! 🙂

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